I'm still me and I feel (physically) fine!
See this post and more on my chondrosarcoma blog - http://ihavechondrosarcoma.blogspot.co.uk/ The only thing I could think, as the Consultant told me the news, was that I should be a little bit more sad and a lot more shocked. That's what people are supposed to feel when they're diagnosed with cancer. The stories are always about people who are 'devastated' while their worlds are 'turned upside down'. Honestly, I was sort of relieved. I think the worst thing about my experience so far is the waiting. Narratives focus on moments - the moment a lump is noticed jumps to the moment a lump is tested jumps to the diagnosis. But these narratives miss the weeks - and often months - in between. Minutes, hours and days in which you notice every single imperfection in your biological material - has that knee always been sore? why have I gone to the toilet seven times today? is this a normal acne spot? That is why I felt relieved when the doctor told me I h...